As they say on that public radio business show "Marketplace" -- first, the numbers:
- Today's weigh-in weight: 290.5 lb
- Weight change since last week: down 2.5 lb
- Cumulative weight loss: 43.5 lb
Now, about that "angst" thing: I am in the midst of one of those weeks in which a whole bunch of emotional crap from the past seems to be raining down on me. The details, while (perhaps way too) important to me, are sorta beside the point in terms of this blog's focus. But suffice it to say, not only did I not throw over my little regimen, but I actually took some solace in it.
I could look at my general progress and feel good about it--"well, at least something in my life is going right!" I could actually find the physical relief in working out my angst on the stationary bicycle. I could enjoy getting myself out of the house and enjoying the fresh air and change of scenery provided by a walk. I could revel in the fresh and lovely tastes of my healthy meals. And I could feel damn glad that I didn't go and pour gasoline on the emotional fire by going out on a binge and then having to deal with those feelings as well.
I'm pretty certain that my reactions to the current crap-storm are a little more pronounced--not to mention more painful--because I'm not currently fogging my brain up with mass quantities of excess food. But the upside of that is, I'm also clear enough to have a better handle on what to do about the current crop of crap, and the energy to go do it. Which I am in the process of doing.
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